Friday, December 7, 2007

What a week!!

I am so glad that it is almost over!! This week most of my time has been taken up with running back and forth to dr. appts. at the base. On Tuesday at my routine cancer check-up I was told by my dr. that she suspects that I have developed Lupus!! I was totally taken back and shocked by that statement!! What the heck!! So needless to say that began my the long week of tests and I am exhausted just from going back and forth! I don't believe that I have Lupus in any way shape or form. I think this is just their way of putting an answer to all of the problems that I have had since I went through chemo 15 1/2 years ago! I mean come on, nothing works right since I had it and I developed all sorts of complications which in other words would be organ failures up the ying yang! So like a good girl I take all these meds they give me to keep everything running and functioning as well as can be which to me is pretty damn good if I don't say so myself!! Lol!! I live each day to it's fullest and in no way shape or form do I ever want anyone's sympathy because life for me is awesome!! I feel my life is way more enriched because of what I have been through not depleted!! So man oh man don't be throwing another thing at me because in my book so what! Life is still going to get lived and lived to it's fullest regardless of any new diagnosis! To me illness is just the bad trying to hold us back and I am not and will not be held back for or by nothing so bring it on!! I know, I know today I am getting a little preachy but dang it we are given this awesome gift each day to live and enjoy what God has made!! Today I am really reflecting on how awesome life really is and that if you maintain the PMA (positive mental attitude) nothing, I say nothing can stand in your way whether you are a healthy individual or someone with some bad stuff that you are dealing with! Life is short so grab the bull by the horns and live it baby, live it!! Okay, I am done now!! Lol!! Oh, and before I forget I am off to Hannah's tonight for the Crop and let me tell you it is going to be awesome!! There are going to be lots of demos and give aways and of course a new "Queen of the Crop" that I will be crowning tonight!! So major fun is to be had by all!!! Hope to see you there!! TFL, Tracy

7 comments:

Marci Knecht said...

You go girl!

Valerie C. said...

WOW!!! Keep up the great attitude toward life- if only EVERYONE could be SO aware of the precious gift we receive in life!

Cricket said...

Tracey, I love your view on life, how totally fabulous and healthy! Kudos to you!!

Sending up some prayers that your doctor is way off base!!

hugs,

Anonymous said...

Tracy, I have always admired you and your little mommy for keeping it real. You are what I try to get to everyday.
Carol

Amy Adams (aka Scrapitgal) said...

{{{{{HUGS}}}}} for my BFF!!! You're one of the strongest people I know girl!! Love you!!

croppin carla said...

TRACY...been waiting for an update......but WOW...thats alot to obsorb! GIRLFRIEND, you rock.......seriously, this is the attitude that I have too. Although I didnt have that on Monday, it was a bad day for me, but Im over it now.......gave myself an attitude adjustment and a new hair cut and Im good to go! So keep up the good attitude......hope you are feeling ok and we will talk to you soon.
Carla

PJ said...

Tracey, Keep up the good work . I know what you are talking about with your views on Chemo . I too had Chemo 20 years ago and suffer with many aches and pains everyday . But wake up with a happy heart and enthusiasum for life. Be well ,Hugs PJ